empty soul !

i sit here with tears in my empty eyes
waiting to see my soul smile a little smile
but it is quiet as dead as dead as me
with nothing to hold on nothing more to set free

those i believed in have left for new surprises
laughing and giggling and singing new melodies
they dont turn back even once ever to see
where am i and what has happened to me

i go on living each moment each day
with no feelings no hope ever to see sun rays
i have done my part with profound honesty
nothing’s left as this soul is no more thirsty

 i try to breathe but i am devoid of air
sucked out of me to leave me in despair
i give up finally to the hands of time
for i have tried to hold on believing in shrine

The soul is empty heart no more
like a living dead cold very cold till the core
no more do i see those dreams of flights
replaced by nightmares in these cold lonely nights

dit dah dit !!!

Today this mind is very restless. Infact since yesterday it has been very very restless. A simple case of "dit dit dit dah dah dah dit dit dit" which simply means SOS. But I had no where specific to send my SOS to. So I sent my SOS to the entire world, knowing that I may not get any response. And I was not even waiting for any response.

I keep contemplating that why can't this human mind forget the things, which it even really wants to forget. Why is it sometimes so difficult to forget or let go. Why? Guess, this is what makes us human. Guess, this is called passion. Or may be not? I don't know what it is called, all I know is that I wish there was a magic wand to make all these memories disappear and let me fly like a free bird again.

From flying, this also was coming to my mind in the morning today. I wanted to fly. I always wanted to fly. And here I am flying "literally". Well, though that was not what I meant when I had wished that "I wish I can fly", guess God also read my wish by the book and granted my wish :)

When I hear the words "this is life", though I say "sigh", I do not agree. This is not life. We make our own life. Yes, there are circumstances which are beyond our control and sometimes even time is bad when everything comes at the same time. But, we do make our own life. The decision of what and who is significant or insignificant also lies with us. All I know is that never hurt a heart which truly loves you. You may move on with your life, but the heart which you have broken may never love again. But then everything is "to each his own". These are my thoughts and you all have yours.

Inspiration lies within us. Will power is in our hands. Letting go dosent mean the hurt shall stop. Hurt may remain for the rest of our life. Just beacuse you are hurting dosent mean you havent let go. The hurt remains as that thing was important and significant to you and the same thing hurt you, really bad. Letting go means though you may be significant and important, that dosent give you the right to keep hurting me, so I let you go.

My SOS, there will be SOS. But they shall remain with me......................