Wall !!!

silently im sitting and wondering and thinking
everything is on mute and my mind is shrinking
the clock is silent unwind for so many days
lost in my own thoughts i stare ahead and gaze

there is no light everything is dark
everything is so silent including my heart
is there a beat i ask myself ?
no, this heart has forgotten how to beat itself

i stare and see nothing in front of me
how i wish i could disappear for no one to see
away from this place far away in space
where no one can reach me no one can disgrace

im just a simple girl wishing for a simple life
I dont want to see, hear as it cuts like a knife
make me disappear once and for all
to a place far away, where no one can break my wall

I am just a simple girl !!!

I am just a simple girl

I am just a simple girl living an extraordinary life
I am just a simple girl wishing for a simple life
I am just a simple girl fighting this complex world
I am just a simple girl dreaming of a simpler world

I am just a simple girl who follows her heart
I am just a simple girl trying to build an Arc
I am just a simple girl caught in sands of time
I am just a simple girl trying to find her smile

I am just a simple girl living in silence
I am just a simple girl trying to find a balance
I am just a simple girl helpless in her cage
I am just a simple girl waiting for her fate to change

I am just a simple girl

The Echo

The Echo

Today I read again, after an eternity
The words my heart had written on the wall
I stared at them with profound immobility
As the echo reduced me to a fall

The Game of Waiting !

You say wait

 as the time is not yet right

You say stay

as the road is not yet within sight

You say hold on

this is not the time to fight

You say believe

and don't be blind by these dark nights

I listen to you and don't say a word

In fear that it may crumble my world

I cross my fingers behind my back

Wishing maybe today you fill my dream rack

At every exit I fake a smile

when only I know, I'm dying inside

Till the day I wrestle, take that as a sign

there is still something alive in me, inside 

Things come to those who wait

But nothing comes if no risk you take 

Once, twice and then thrice?

It's difficult to trust, but what if this time, it's right ! 

You will not know till you let go

Of all your fears that make you go slow 

Your life is not yours, then whose it is ? 

Why do we live only to fit in

Take a step towards your dream

Stop this waiting, this pain within

If you keep waiting for the right time

It will never come and life will pass you by 

The End !

Sometimes we keep living from one day to another

Not knowing where these roads will take us

We see the horizon looking back at us

Not knowing whether we will touch or submerge

I see the shadow of the black sun behind me

While I sit at the peak ready to jump

My thoughts are filled with the voices of pain

Telling me to quit and be ready to submerge

What is life I keep asking myself

If I cannot be with the one that I love

Between the two worlds I am crushed

Hopless I decide to finally submerge

I fall freely flying with the wind

Feeling like a bird with two long white wings

No one is there to break my fall

I think of you, only you, while I finally submerge

Back to .......

A little girl came to town

On her own after feeling let down

Not knowing what was stored for her

Scared and uncertain 

she embraced the new fur

She stumbled and fell

But no one could tell

For she had promised her angel

She will take him away 

away from road to hell

Storms came and went

She quietly took each one of them

When did she break, she herself didn't know

As there was no time to feel dead and hollow

As she sits here and looks back at her life

There are no regrets though sometime she may not be right

Life is a journey and nothing lasts for ever

These few words she says to herself

forever and forever

Why ?

Why are there moments which make you think
That everything is impossible and everything stings
Why can't I live one day at a time
How can I change myself and find peace of mind

All efforts fail to think differently
Even if I push myself to infinite degree
I keep getting lost in these ferocious storms
Please help me, give me strength to be strong

I am so afraid like a scared child in a lonely street
Surrounded by darkness, with no ground under my feet
Why can't I be grateful for all that I have
Why can't I change and accept my fate defeat